As someone whose been size 10 and size 16, I can tell you that being skinny does actually feel different from being big, I don’t care what anyone says…..but the way we feel is all between the ears. A year or so ago, uber-thin model Kate Moss got herself into big trouble. When asked in an interview if she had any mottos, she replied: “There are loads of mottos. There’s ‘Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels’. That’s one of them.” While she was criticised widely, I know exactly what she means. When you are feeling sexy, thin and attractive, there’s nothing you can shove in your mouth that is going to make you feel that good. But I can tell you, a great haircut, well-tailored dress, nice shoes and a great sassy attitude can do the same thing for me. Feeling and being sexy is nothing to do with your size. I wouldn’t trade the years I’ve had as a confident, brassy, happy, intelligent and great looking size 14 for the ones I had as a paranoid, self-critical, self-obssessed and self-hating size 10. I love being bigger, and it’s not because I’ve learned to accept myself fat. I love being bigger because I am free to focus on things other than my arse, my boobs, my reflection in the mirror, my calorific infrcations, my jeans size and my eating, or my not eating, as the case may be. If being size 10 means I have to become possessed by the evil skinny spirit again, I’ll stay free and fat, thanks all the same.
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Not much blogging going on, I know. Sorry about that, you must be quite disappointed. I’m on the re-write, you see. I’m back at the beginning of my book and working my way through it, taking bits out and putting bits in, and sewing the whole thing together like a scarf made of those crocheted […]
The abundant life we are promised by our Maker is release from the indentity this Egypt has fashioned for us; fit only for producing consumables. But you, you, are an artist, you are a work of art. You were made to create, not just to make. You were created from an idea, not from a brick-mould. You are more than what you produce. Leave time. Time is where your dreams lie waiting to be realised.
I thought bad stuff happened because something bad happened somewhere, or someone did or dodn’t do something they were supposed to, perhaps even only in secret, perhaps even God. I thought good things happened because they were earned or deserved, and could even be organised if you tried hard enough, but that was before I learned about God’s grace. I was wrong about bad things, and I was wrong about good things. It makes me wonder how wrong I am still pretty wrong about lots of other things too.