You can do one small thing today to turn this thing on its head. But don’t look out there for the thing – look at you. Look inside, because that’s where any changes you make will cause the greatest difference. It’s not them, or there, or that, anyway, that’s bringing you closer to where you want to go. It’s inside you. In your head, in your heart, in your hands. That’s where the path to your success lies.
As someone whose been size 10 and size 16, I can tell you that being skinny does actually feel different from being big, I don’t care what anyone says…..but the way we feel is all between the ears. A year or so ago, uber-thin model Kate Moss got herself into big trouble. When asked in an interview if she had any mottos, she replied: “There are loads of mottos. There’s ‘Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels’. That’s one of them.” While she was criticised widely, I know exactly what she means. When you are feeling sexy, thin and attractive, there’s nothing you can shove in your mouth that is going to make you feel that good. But I can tell you, a great haircut, well-tailored dress, nice shoes and a great sassy attitude can do the same thing for me. Feeling and being sexy is nothing to do with your size. I wouldn’t trade the years I’ve had as a confident, brassy, happy, intelligent and great looking size 14 for the ones I had as a paranoid, self-critical, self-obssessed and self-hating size 10. I love being bigger, and it’s not because I’ve learned to accept myself fat. I love being bigger because I am free to focus on things other than my arse, my boobs, my reflection in the mirror, my calorific infrcations, my jeans size and my eating, or my not eating, as the case may be. If being size 10 means I have to become possessed by the evil skinny spirit again, I’ll stay free and fat, thanks all the same.
Not much blogging going on, I know. Sorry about that, you must be quite disappointed. I’m on the re-write, you see. I’m back at the beginning of my book and working my way through it, taking bits out and putting bits in, and sewing the whole thing together like a scarf made of those crocheted [...]
