How to shut out the world, and it all be okay.

There will be times when you feel strongly about connecting with others and building ties and making relationships and being around people, and you’ll seem to have endless energy for them all the time and take them out and have them around and give them everything you have, and it will never drain you or tire you and you’ll think, I am made to do this, this is my thing, people are so my jam, I’ll be doing it like this forever, don’t ever leave, I will never leave.

And there are times when you will withdraw into your bower and turn down the lights, and close the door and hope nobody notices and keep the noises low and the distractions to a minimum, and you won’t seek out contact with anyone much, or anyone at all, and you’ll surround yourself with things very old and very new that give you comfort and a connection to the unseen world and childhood comforts, and things that live silently and need little care or attention, or which draw your complete attention, which need a safe, quiet place to do their thing, but do not speak, like a candle, or a cluster of feathers, or a circle of stones, or a tray of tea, or a small dog or cat, or a book that needs reading, or one that needs writing. And that will be all you need.

And you’ll need it very, very much, And that will be okay. And that will be all right.

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  • This article touched me deeply. From 21 to 41, I lived through others. Family, which was good, as well as volunteering and professionally. I loved helping others, living for others, being there for others in need. I felt rock solid. I felt intuitive. I felt alive. But I missed a critical lesson, and that is balance.
    I minimized my own needs and time. At 41, I crashed, mentally, emotionally, physically.
    As I rebuilt myself and life, I renewed. I left my stressful job. I focused on calmness, my inner person, and living in the moment. I traveled and saw and experienced things I’d never thought I could or would. And I felt like a child in a new park. I was transforming into a new personality, and was glad to meet him.
    At 45, I was officially diagnosed with an incurable disease. It was a shock and at 1st, devastating. But, in time, I learned so much. I lost job, health, some freedoms, but have gained so much. Every moment is precious. Every day a gift. There’s no such thing as risk of death. That’s inevitable. But there is a risk of not living, so I keep focused on each moment and day.
    I did, and so at times feel guilt, that I should be using my time and energy for others, but your article was such a good reminder, thank you. These last 3 years have been a totally new way of life. My dogs and walks are so enlightening, life is enlightening, I feel more and more at peace. So I am learning that guilt has no place in my peace. Thank you, and embrace the day, life, and yourself.
    Lou

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