We are dreaming. And living our dream. We are looking for a place which aligns with who we are and what we do. We can’t go back, though the temptation to do so comes often, and seems so much like common sense. Who does this? Who launches themselves out into the world like this?
After all, what do we have to lose?
Ten years ago, I nearly died. And no matter how terrified I feel sometimes, I know what it feels like to be dying, and this isn’t it. No job. No home. No security. And I’m not dying from this. I’m not afraid, because those things are not what living is. I’ve never felt more alive,
Five years ago, I almost lost my man forever. I let him go, knowing I may never see him alive again. But I believed in Gods goodness for us both, even when all our history and all our future was dissolved in hopelessness. And we found each other again.
For such a time as this.
I don’t know what’s going to happen – only what if like to happen. We want to help people heal, the way we were helped to heal. And not in a breeze in – make a fuss – breeze out kind of way. In a long, stable, even boring kind of way. In community. In relationship. Over time. We are all on a healing journey, and it doesn’t need to be solo, in the dark, where others can’t see or reach. There is no shame in healing, and we need each other to do it.
I know in my heart it’s not really about a place. It’s about us. We are that place. The land, the space, the shelter will come when we inhabit it. I believe this.
If I could tell you anything, I would tell you –
This is not the end,
This is not all there is,
There is hope.
There is healing.
You are enough. Always were.
Your love is good. Your heart is good.
It can be okay. It can. It will.
You’re good, and healing is for you.
You’re going to be all right.
Sweetheart, if love and healing is for me, it’s also for you,
Lots of love,